Siblings

Am I the only one that is not close to their siblings? It’s not my fault but it kind of is. I hate not being close to them because I’m missing out in their lives. Being the oldest sucks they are all younger than me like middle and elementary school. I hate that we are all separated.

The history behind it is I was born first then my brother the next year. My grandmother took my brother and me in because our mom and dad were young to take care of us. Then my mom and dad separated. My mom had two more boys. We’re close to them I’m happy we are able to talk and see them. My mom makes sure we all have communication with each other. She always reaches out to talk to us and takes us places when there’s a chance.

For my dad, he was putting work he had four babies. I hate it one of the boys is living with his grandparent I don’t communicate with him because I don’t know where to find him. Three other siblings are living with there mom. It’s not fun being separated. Now I find out he is having twins with another lady. Like really!! He tries to communicate with us I give him that. It’s like a roller coaster were at the top talking and everything then it goes down he goes ghost.

Yes, I can do something about it like trying to get in contact with the parents which I do but I’m like it shouldn’t have to be that way. There’s more to the way I feel but I don’t know how to express myself so I’ll stop here thanks for reading this if yall got any comments or anything let me know!!!